My Story

Since I was a child, I've always wanted to belong. My parents immigrated from Taiwan in their 20s and growing up in the suburbs of New Jersey I struggled with belonging. I wanted more than anything to fit in with my cohort but because I looked different than everyone else, I had difficulties embracing who I was and I certainly did not want to stand out. A part of me was embarrassed and ashamed for being Asian and I would fantasize about being White so I assimilated the best I could. This was an internal conflict I had well into my 20s along with anxiety, depression, low self esteem, body dysmorphia and eating disorder. Growing up in a traditional Chinese culture of achieving and doing, there was never any slowing down or taking a pause. It felt like I had been placed on a high speed conveyer belt that couldn't stop. After graduating with a psychology degree with a minor in public health, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do so I pursued an MBA and MPH. This led me to moving into New York City with my first job at a pharmaceutical advertising agency. Fast forward ten years later, I felt soul-less and unfulfilled trying to compete with myself and everyone else in the rat race of working in the corporate world.

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In 2019, I went back to Taiwan with my parents for the first time in seven years and there was a healing that happened when I was on the land. It was a homecoming going back to my roots, being in a land where I looked like everyone else. After that visit, a slew of synchronicities started happening such as experiencing reiki for the first time, going back to my meditation practice, fasting / cleansing my body, drinking plant medicine, and, ultimately, leaving my corporate job! I began working with the plant medicine, ayahuasca, as an assistant drinking the medicine, playing music, singing icaros, and holding space, and through this, I developed community. I met a friend in the community who had an extra ticket to Dan Brule's all day breathwork workshop and was blown away by the experience. I started incorporating breathwork more into my life and was astounded by how much I was releasing that I decided that I wanted to help others with it. Breathwork has been a transformational and powerful tool in helping me find that connection to myself and coming back to wholeness and I am delighted and honored to be part of your journey in coming home to yourself. 

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Ru currently resides in the quaint magical village of Arroyo Seco, surrounded by the sacred mountains of Taos, New Mexico.